I don't know why I always feel guilty so easily like that incident of the Soursop Juice I really couldn't control the feeling of guiltiness seeping into me. I felt so bad that I caused all that shit and ruined the mood and everything. I think I sort of know why I'm like this because I still remember this incident when I was in Primary 3 there was this silly bookmark making competition and I wanted to win the prize so I designed this bookmark and begged my dad to go laminate it for me. And my mum then gave me a big lecture after that about the laminating costs and shitnits and I don't know what happened after that just that I felt so guilty and traumatised that I cried. It wasn't even a big thing it doesn't even cost a bomb just that my mum instilled a lot of guilt within me. I don't know if that incident has any relation to why I'm like that today but never will I forget that incident, I remembered going to my room and crying over it into my pillow
I kind of hate it when I'm super senstitive like that sometimes I hate it when I feel that way and I start thinking stupid paranoid things which is really oversensitivity and I feel guilty even though it may or may not be my fault. And I think this feelings become worse when I'm pms-ing. I try to control my feelings like that sometimes and they may not always work and I try to convince myself I'm just thinking too much....
groused by woochata at 11:08 AM
